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Thursday, November 26th, 2009
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It's thanksgiving, and it smells like thanksgiving, cept it's just me and my mom. my dad called the paramedics and is out in westland because my granmmy hippo might not be okay. ) :
I am worried.
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Wednesday, November 18th, 2009
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what i learned in school.
-what post-modern means in art.
-what post-modern means in art and literature.
-what post-post modern means in art and literature.
I have a headache thinking about it all.
I had to read post-modern poems all day yesterday, and then watch a "post-modern documentary", which was basically just code for the most shittiest artsy shit I've ever seen. I had to walk out of my class early.
I can't wait for age of post-post modernism to end. Give me something concrete!
I wanna go up north this weekend. I've been dreamin' of it since I heard that song about the Edmund Fitzgerald.
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Wednesday, November 11th, 2009
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i should be graduating not this next semester, but this summer after I take a couple art classes.
this hasn't really hit me yet, but when it does... it's gonna be totally weird.
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Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009
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I love hank williams... makes me laugh, makes me cry. "Move it on over" makes me really happy. this is one of those things that makes me feel like i don't belong in kalamazoo. oh well.
but i need to listen to some new music.. new old music or something.
i was told last night that the song I wrote sounds like some early cat power. (woah, yeah)
that made me feel pretty good!
I still can't figure out what I want to make a picture of for my etching. I keep thinking of things, and then I feel like it isn't good enough, it's fake to me. I want to make something really great this time.
for some reason roadkill has been fascinating to me...
The fog, a ghost, nothing
but something to look at
with a right to exist
put in a box marked miscellaneous.
with dancing legs of deer carcasses
spinning, then posed,
froze like ballet dancers
the side of the road,
a flip book, good entertainment,
i'm still not thinking of you.
that is a glimpse of a poem that I am trying to write for class. it is supposed to be a michael burkhart imitation poem, but so far it is not like his stuff at all.
I hate to sound pretentious.. poetry is so pretentious, it puts so much meaning onto every line, word, punctuation.
so just in case you didn't know, I don't think i'm better you.
peace. (and baby ducks)
love,
lauren.
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Monday, November 2nd, 2009
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its cold, i'm tired, wanna go back to bed..
wake me up in a week.
the next few days are going to be very long.
stuff sucks, but I'm really happy to still be friend's with clay.
I think I am going to make a one page comic, in an etching... gotta brainstorm.
getting a guitar on thursday, i don't know what kind I want.
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Friday, October 30th, 2009
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halloween basically rules. I wish I had some extra cash so I could go see the Evil Dead Musical...
3rd annual zombie prom is tonight, wooooooo.....
I've had a lot on my mind, so I checked out my horoscope. I guess I'm supposed to have an intellectual conversation today, or talk about my feelings.
ugh.
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Wednesday, October 28th, 2009
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I think the reason I feel like I don't like these comics is because they are really true.
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Thursday, October 22nd, 2009
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DEAR FELLOW HUMANS:
I usually mistrust older people's giving advice to younger, because while often their advice is very good (the values of foresight, temperance, persistence, etc.), they forget that younger people usually know one of the most important things of all: the value of enthusiasm and enjoyment of life.
Twenty-five years ago, Franklin Roosevelt spoke to my generation. "Youth: hold fast to your dream," he said. In other words don’t give up your ideals of peace, freedom, justice, truth - the way as many adults do. When you come down to it, more people die from discouragement than any disease. And why do people get discouraged? Because they feel that life’s a joyless struggle; because they feel they're on a dead-end street.
So here are a few of my own recipes for avoiding this kind of discouragement. They may or may not apply to you. Only you can decide.
1. It’s better to take a job you want at less pay than a job you don’t want for more pay. But you can learn from any job.
2. It’s okay to suffer intense temporary discomforts in order to reach a longer-range goal. But make sure it is only temporary.
3. Debts can be chains, best used when they can haul you to new heights, rather than entangle your legs. It’s the same with possessions. "Man doesn’t possess possessions: they possess us".
4. Travel while you are young, and still are free of responsibilities. See what a big, broad, beautiful land we have here, then maybe a foreign land or two. See that there are honest, hard-working people in every corner of the globe, all quite certain that their own way of living, their local geography, their music, etc. is most beautiful.
5. Keep your health. It’s easy while you are young. But our fine, tempting, modern civilization can erode it easily too. Many a man or woman has finally worked himself into a position where he could do something, and then found he no longer had the health to do it or enjoy it.
5½. In view of the fact that good health and energy don’t last forever, it’s worth doing some things earlier than later. When my wife and I were about thirty and very broke, we built own our house, inch by inch, on a mountainside. Glad we did; doubt we'd have energy enough to do it now. And I’ve known too many people who put off such projects "until we have the money" or "until we have the time" - and if they eventually did get the money or the time, they no longer had the energy.
6. A happy sex life may take years to achieve, but it’s worth it in the long run. Worth the time, the thought - or rather, the thoughtfulness - and, often, the waiting.
7. A few short ones: Prestige is much overrated. The celebrity business is for the birds. Respectability is nice, but consider: whom do you most want to respect you? Money is like air or water. You need a certain amount to live. Beyond that, who wants to be a dog in the manger?
And now I'll stop before I rattle on any longer, like any old graybeard. All the foregoing applies to the one central thing I mentioned at the beginning: how to keep discouragement from withering the priceless enthusiasm which most young people have.
So far I've quoted FDR and Ralph Waldo Emerson. Here are a few more favorite quotes. (Note: When you steal one person it’s plagiarism. When you steal from ten, it’s scholarship. When you steal from a hundred, it's original research.)
First, a story about the late comedian Fred Allen. He once saw a small boy toddle in front of a truck and snatched him to safety just in time. On the sidewalk again, he said, "S'matter kid: don’t you want to grow up and have troubles?"
Next, a fragment from the German poet Bertolt Brecht.
. . .For we know only too well:
Even the hatred of squalor
Makes the brow grow stern;
Even anger against injustice
Makes the voice grow harsh. Alas, we
Who wished to lay the foundations of kindness
Could not ourselves be kind.
Here’s a famous line credited to Gandhi: "To the millions who have to go without two meals a day, the only form in which God dare appear is food." A line from a Harvard graduate back from Africa: "Nigerians are a proud people who don't want tourists, don't want heroes, don't want saviors. They just want schoolteachers."
Now, a paragraph from Woody Guthrie the dustbowl balladeer who taught me much not only about music but about my country and life in general: "The worst thing that can happen to you is to cut yourself loose from people. And the best thing is to sort of vaccinate yourself right into the bloodstreams of the people. . . to feel that you know the best and the worst of folks that you see everywhere, and never to feel weak, or lost, or even lonesome anywhere. . .There is just one thing that can cut you from the people and that is any brand or style of greed. . .There is just one way to save yourself, and that's to get together and work and fight for everybody."
Lastly I quote the words of a song I put together last year, using words from the book of Ecclesiastes.
"To everything (turn turn turn)
There is a season (turn turn turn)
And a time for every purpose
Under heaven
A time to be born, a time to die,
A time to plant, a time to reap,
A time to kill, a time to heal,
A time to laugh, a time to weep.
A time to build up, a time to break down,
A time o dance, a time to mourn,
A time to cast away stones
A time to gather stones together.
A time of love, a time of hate,
A time of war, a time of peace,
A time you may embrace,
A time to refrain from embracing.
A time to gain, a time to lose,
A time to rend, a time to sew,
A time to love, a time to hate,
A time for peace - I swear, it’s not too late!
To everything (turn turn turn)
There is a season (turn turn turn)
And a time for every purpose
Under heaven."
Well, here’s hoping all the foregoing will help you avoid a few dead-end streets (we all hit some), and here’s hoping enough of your dreams come true to keep you optimistic about the rest. We've got a big world to learn how to tie together. We’ve all got a lot to learn. And don’t let your studies interfere with your education.
Sincerely,
Pete Seeger
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Thursday, September 17th, 2009
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there's this girl in my poetry class AND I HATE HER.
go figure, right?
DAMN, she really gets on my nerves, I think I keep accidently giving her the stink eye.
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Wednesday, September 16th, 2009
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I made the paper for the dalai lama's journals!
Friday I am teaching kids how to make art... kids kinda freak me out, but not as much as old people, so I think it will be fun!
I get to do some more printing today, and I was thinking of using the prints for an art book, maybe a collaborative project, or a story.
I have a ton of work to be doing all the time,
but things are good.
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Thursday, September 10th, 2009
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Lit. & U.S. culture, Women in the Arts, Advanced Poetry, Intaglio and Relief, Kalamazoo Book Arts Center Independent Study.
Tomorrow I start my job as an intern.. there is a paper-making demo I'm helping with at the Book Arts center at the art hop(5-5:30). And there is a poetry reading on Saturday at around 7... I don't know what to expect with that. But, the best part about this is that I get to use all of the printmaking equipment, and I get my own set of keys to the building so that I can use it as my own studio!
My classes are great, my poetry class is insane! It was like we were on acid by the end of class! I have to write a poem, if you know any good poets I should check out you should let me know, cause I don't know WTF I'm doing.
There are some really good oppoutunities at Western, good teachers(if you look for them), good art department... It is just so hard to focus in kalamazoo. alcohol is kind of a problem when you are trying to work on projects.
Oh well, I think I am going to be okay now, I think having nothing to do and the end of summer was givin me the blues. aka making me want to stab motherfuckers!
Now, I am really busy.
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Saturday, September 5th, 2009
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There's this new drink called brain toniq and it's really good!
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Sunday, August 30th, 2009
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I wonder who is going to have zombie prom this year!!
Because if nobody else is having it,
my house is big and we have a giant basement!!!
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One last week until school starts again, and I can't believe it!
This summer was not so bad... I got some school credits in, went to flordia, colorado. I feel like I have a real connection with Carrie, and Ryan, and Amy. It is good to know that they care, and for them to know who I am.
new house, new roomates.
I guess I didn't get exactly what I wanted out of the summer, there wasn't as music music and boozin as I had imagined in my head,... but there were good things. Really good things... things that have taken me years to accomplish.
I like to get phonecalls from people who care, that just want to talk.
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Monday, August 24th, 2009
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this is me today. help me barbra.. kruger!
I'm afraid to go outside, I know I'm going to start smoking if I go out there! I was thinking of hiding in my basement, but I've already watched all the Micheal & Micheal I can handle for today.. which isn't very much. (love micheal ian black, whatababe)
I keep weighing out the pros and cons of smoking in my head. Which basically comes down to me desperatly trying to convince myself that being cool is more important than breathing.
Then I came to the conclusion that I will smoke until 2012 is over just in case the end of the world is on it's way, and it I am still alive by 2013 than I will quit.
I actually thought to myself that maybe since more people have been quitting because of how expensive and inconvienent cigarettes have become... then maybe smoking will become healthier for those fewer people remaining. As if it's the quanity of people smoking that is the real problem for my problems. Maybe if I just sneek past all the people quitting and keep smoking then I can be the happiest smoker there ever was! WHICH MAKES NO SENSE.
My gramdma has been smoking since she was 17 and she's 94 or something rediculous. she is so stubborn.
In other news: I'm back from being up north with my family, where I kicked some ass in scattergories! Not really, but kinda.
love,
lauren.
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Sunday, August 23rd, 2009
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i'm afraid I'm going off the deep end again.........
i might be a smoker next time u see me.
I haven't quite figured it out yet.
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Saturday, August 15th, 2009
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COLORADO! It's windy and beautiful and you can see so far in every direction from wherever you are! I feel like I've been living in a swamp all my life.
So far, we walked through the mountains, explored some old mining towns/saw the creepy mountain creepers, I got yelled at by at old man!
helped ryan brew beer! drank beers. Went to Boulder. Walked around Denver, which is a really nice city.
and went to the Denver Art Museum! where I saw some western american art, modern & contemporary art, oceanic art, and design after 1900.
I saw this painting:
Jonas Burgert "Second Day Coming"
and Sandy Skoglund "Fox Games"
Went to one of the best vegetarian resturaunts called Water Course Food. I got a ruben, but the ONION RINGS were the BEST.
That's all for now.
Love,
lauren.
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My family is so dysfunctional!
It is pure insanity. My mom and dad are so old. And my dad has always been afraid of getting old, so in responce to that fear I think he pretends to be even older. He was wearing some kind of weird cab driver hat, and I think he believes he was born in like 1910 or something.
and milford memories. FUCK YOU.
I can't wait to go to colorado, this next tuesday!
on a much happier note, 500 days of Summer is a totally good movie.
and if I make it through today I'm going to Detroit later.
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And if you have 5 seconds to spare
the I'll tell you the story of my life:
Sixteen, Clumsy, and shy.
That's the story of my life.
I bought Louder than Bombs today, I really like this song. I miss buying CDs.
I can't wait to lay in bed all day and watch cartoons, like 2 peas in a pod.
LAUREN.
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